(08-05-2011 05:56 AM)Brian Wrote:
(08-05-2011 04:24 AM)Mark Wrote: I'll say this. In all of my years, I've noticed that attitude = success. Always. Guys with shitty, dismissive attitudes are always the one's blowing up about how they never improve and toil away for years. Guys with positive, humble and optimistic attitudes always get there eventually. Sometimes it takes them a while, but they all get there.
I think shitty and dismissive attitude is HUGE self esteem issue. The problem is that these people self esteem was so low that they dont even realize their shitty attitude. One day, when they truly hit rock bottom and confront of what they're shameful about, as well as their jealousy issues, they'll become more humble and then they become more likable and down to earth.
It's actually funny that say you that (funny because it's true), because that actually happened to me yesterday morning. I remember waking up and feeling the most depressed I've ever felt in my entire life (because of the pills I took; I'll explain later), just fucking hated everything about myself so much, like all of my insecurities had just blown up all at one time and I cried for the first time since I can't even remember how long ago. But after I slept it off, I had an epiphany, I guess you could say. I started to feel better about myself and started finding reasons why I love myself and all the good things that I've done. I felt so much better throughout the day and still do now. Usually, I feel good, then bad, then good, then bad, for no reasons sometimes. I mean, there was a reason, but the reason was too deep and I never really addressed it and just ignored it for a very long time. I guess the reason all of this happened was because, for the first time in my life (or since I can remember), on Friday night, I felt so good. I popped some thizz that night and every single negative thought and emotion (fear, anger, sadness, etc.) was 100% gone from my body. I acted purely out of love and joy. I just loved everyone and everything. I was so happy just being there, being myself. I was more social than I've ever been. I talked to more people than I can remember. I partied and danced my ass off. I had a lot of fun. I got numbers from 6 girls that I liked. I tried to pull 1 girl right after the party was over, no luck, still felt great, got her number, and am talking to her now, as well as 3 other girls I got numbers from. But even if none of that happened, I still would have felt awesome just because I was doing whatever I wanted to do (nothing stupid, weird, annoying) and nothing was holding me back.
I understand why I made this thread. I'm not sorry about it and I don't regret anything I said. But now that I know why I do stupid shit like this (manipulating others for my own satisfaction) among many other things, I won't do it again here or anywhere else in the world. It all came to me yesterday like I said. If am not acting out of love, then I am not being my genuine self.
And don't feel the need to respond to this post. I just had to express my feelings somewhere and this is the best place for me. I'm sure most of you despise me as a person and that's cool. I understand where you guys are coming from. I don't want to win you over and make you think any different of me.
Love you, guys. Peace out.