Phillip, checkout the book "Inner Life" by Leadbeater and your experience makes perfect sense once you read that book. I wish I could sumarize it here but its' entirely stupidly complex that even i only understand 50 percent of it.

I used to have extreme anger problem and one day, I simply solve it. I was given a tons of shit by my boss about absolute bullshit and it lasted in my system for days. One day, I realize I cannot fight it and i just let it ride it out and actually enjoy the anger. I enjoy the experience for what it is for a minute and it simply disapear and it its place, complete happiness.

Anyway, in terms of spirituality, the new modern movement is known as "New Age". New Age was largely founded by Alice Bailey under the guidance of Master Djwhal Khul's.

Alice Bailey was originally a member of Theosophy.

Master DJwhal Khul's was susposely a reincarnated soul of the great Confucius, if you so incline to believe in reincarnation.

Who else is a member of this "New Age movement"? Well, our favorite inner game Guru Eckhart Tolle himself as well lol.